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Kintsugi of My Soul

Posted by Michelle Rutz on May 11, 2020 at 4:25 PM

I can literally feel myself healing every day.

Like the Kintsugi process of repairing broken potterymixing

the urushi glue,

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The Gifts of HindSight

Posted by Michelle Rutz on May 11, 2020 at 4:00 PM

Regrets...I've had a few…a few?

Really?...only a few?

I am a four on the Enneagram…

an INFJ on the Myers Briggs…

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The Other Mary

Posted by Michelle Rutz on August 10, 2017 at 3:45 AM

I wrote this story in November of 2007 and could never decide how to resolve the ending in a realistic way.  I never imagined I would be this mother. Now I live this pain and as I resolve my pain, I hope to finish the story.  How would you end it?

The Other Mary

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"Richly Blessed" by Kenny's Mom, Mother's Day 2013

Posted by Michelle Rutz on March 3, 2014 at 11:30 PM

As I was walking my dog this morning among the tall pines along the creek that flows near our house, I was startled by an elderly gentleman who was hidden below in the trees, picking up trash along the stream banks on his property.

"Hello," his deep voice resonated. I jumped slightly and turned to see him and his dog.

"Sorry, looks like I frightened you."

"Yes, you did. I didn't s...

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It Could Happen to Anyone by Kenny's Mom 4/13

Posted by Michelle Rutz on March 3, 2014 at 11:25 PM

"It could happen to anyone." That's the phrase a friend, not even a friend, someone I didn't know, but later became a friend, said to me when I met with him. He told me he'd been to my son's memorial service even though he didn't know me and that when it was over he went home and told his wife, "you know, that could happen to anyone." The comfort that statement brought me at the time and since has been immea...

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Then What? by Kenny's Mom February 2012

Posted by Michelle Rutz on March 3, 2014 at 11:20 PM

Children who stray
Parents who fail
Incurable Illness
Chronic pain
Untimely death
Malicious crime
Deadly forces of nature
Friends who betray
Spouses who hurt

Sometimes life is hard...

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Alternative Education written 12/08 by Kenny's Mom

Posted by Michelle Rutz on March 3, 2014 at 11:15 PM

Alternative Education

Would you like to spend the night alone in the woods in a tent in a cold foreign country? Would you consider this “education?” For a young man, just turned eighteen, this is his education - his “college,” if you will. His declared major is independence with a minor in adventure.

Kenny Rutz walked away from his childhood home in Norther...

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Kenny Rutz Memorial Scholarships at California Montessori Project, Shingle Springs

Posted by Michelle Rutz on January 29, 2014 at 8:20 PM

2013 Recipient Rachel Young

2012 Recipient Emma Cook

Running for Kenny

Posted by Michelle Rutz on October 22, 2012 at 10:20 PM

Kenny's mom, Michelle, will be jog/walking a marathon in Sacramento the first Sunday in December to raise money for the Endless Joy Foundation and to raise awareness and reduce the stigma of mental illness.  We are asking people to donate $26.20 - One dollar for each mile she runs. 26.2 miles.  The slogan for her run is "Living with Mental Illness is harder than running a marathon with arthri...

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Kenny's Memorial Service

Posted by Michelle Rutz on January 16, 2012 at 5:45 AM

Please join us in a celebration of my brother, Kenny's life. Reception to follow at the church. In lieu of flowers, donations may be made to the Kenny Rutz Endless Joy Memorial Foundation. It will be at Green Valley Community Church on Friday, January 20, 2012 from 3:30 P.M. to 6:30 P.M. Thank you.